MyBlog

Miranda Part 2

This blog won’t make sense to you unless you’ve read “Miranda.”

 

Below is the original Amazon thread post from “WarriorMom,” whose full name I know but will not disclose.

 

Michael Schofield,
Regardless of what you may think, I am not at all afraid to confront you and ask you questions on Bipolar Nation. I have a job and I work on Sundays and for me to take a day off just to be on your show is not at this time possible. I have children too who have therapies that need to be payed for that my insurance does not cover – so I WORK to pay for them. I do not exploit my child in order to get money for anything we need. I am a Licensed Professional in good standing working at a job that I have had for over 2 years now.
The reason you blocked me and have blocked others from your sites is not because I kept “going and going” but because you could not manipulate me and be evasive with your answers. You have in fact censored me as well as many others who have confronted you with your abusive and violent behavior.
So again if you are not censoring me or anyone else then unblock me and everyone you have blocked from your pages and let us question you. But in the meantime (as I know you are afraid to unblock and will keep us censored) I will start by asking you ten questions here:
1. When you shook Jani with “impotent anger” at 2 months old and then did not take her to the hospital following the incident, how long did you live in fear of her dying and you being prosecuted for murdering her? A month? Two?
2. When Jani was never sleeping and you were becoming violent with her for not sleeping as an infant you were working on a screenplay called 20/20 at the time… why were you not using that time to sleep? 3. What if any mental health help did you get for yourself immediately after shaking Jani with “impotent anger”?
4. Susan when you first decided to put Jani in UCLA isn’t it true that it was just a few months after you had given birth to Bodhi and you were having post pardum depression, what mental health help did you get for yourself before ultimately deciding Jani was the problem and putting her in UCLA?
5. Susan, I understand that you took Jani to auditions for 3 years before she was 5 years old until she decided she did not want to do them anymore. Did her refusal to do the auditions influence your decision that she was mentally ill?
6. When Jani was being evaluated at UCLA for mental illness, you write in your blog that when Drs asked you if Jani had any history of abuse you said no. Were you intentionally being deceptive with them or did you honestly believe that your violent actions were not abusive?
7. Do the drs who did Jani’s MRI and found the ischemia in her brain know that you shook her as an infant, also hit her as hard as you could at other times or of any other violent act you have done to Jani that you have chosen not to blog about? 8. Did Jani’s psychiatrists at UCLA know that you abused her prior to her symptoms and ultimate diagnosis? Does her current psychiatrist know that you abused her?
9. This past summer you blogged about how you dosed Jani with adult strength benedryl in order to knock her out. Were you aware at that time that overdoses of benedryl caused halucinations? Susan exactly how much benedryl were you dosing Bodhi with this past fall when you were claiming on FB that he too was schizophrenic and having halucinations?
10. Is it true that you are now editing your blogs as you have done in the past of the abusive acts you previously described in order to deceive the public? Why also have you not made mention of ANY of your abusive violent actions on ANY of the tv spots? Do you not find that deceptive to the public at large?
Looking forward to your responses. Oh and what are you going to say to CPS when they see that you have responded to me here?

 

End of original post

 

 

Now me…I’m in italics.

 

That was quick. Okay, I copy and pasted your response and will respond through-out.

 

 

Regardless of what you may think, I am not at all afraid to confront you and ask you questions on Bipolar Nation. I have a job and I work on Sundays and for me to take a day off just to be on your show is not at this time possible. I have children too who have therapies that need to be payed for that my insurance does not cover – so I WORK to pay for them.

 

From Michael: I get that. That is one of the reasons I continue to teach at CSUN. I am very lucky that lecturers who teach at my institution get full health insurance as long as we teach at least six units (two classes) per semester. I actually enjoy teaching but I could never give it up even if I didn’t because nothing else I do provides me with health insurance (including this book).

 

 I do not exploit my child in order to get money for anything we need.

 

From Michael: I don’t exploit Jani and never would. You seem to assume we go after the media attention. It is the other way around. In early 2009, a friend shared our story with Shari Roan, the LA Times health reporter who then called us. We shared our story, primarily because at that time our insurance company was denying coverage for Jani’s hospital stays. Since the opportunity to share our story presented itself, we figured that perhaps if our insurer found themselves in the LA Times they might stop trying to deny payment to UCLA for Jani’s services. Shari followed us for about four months before the article was written and published. The first LA Times article led to a lot of attention from various media outlets. Some we turned down. We turned down Dr. Phil because we felt his show had become a joke. The most laughable one was Tony Robbin’s people, who wanted to fly us to Tony’s private island in Fiji. I say “laughable” because there was no way we were going to drag Jani and Bodhi on a fifteen hour flight to Fiji. We agreed to 20/20 because we wanted a serious show that would focus on the serious issue of mental illness in children. Oprah wanted the show as well and her company, Harpo, and ABC News came to an agreement that Oprah would go first. Notice that show was done via satellite because there was no way we could get Jani to Chicago. Oprah agreed. We introduced the 20/20 producers to two other families who were actually featured more than we were. Both shows followed us around because they understood (and we made very clear) that we were not going to make any changes to Jani’s routine to accommodate them). What I find funny is you seem to assume that Shari Roan of the LA Times, the Oprah producers, and the 20/20 producers didn’t read every single one of my blogs. Of course they did. One of Oprah’s questions for me was going to be about the shaking incident. I was okay with that and prepared to answer but she never got around to asking me during the taping. The 20/20 producers also asked me about the shaking and I answered, but the footage was not used, for reasons that had nothing to do with me. Every single media appearance we have done, they have known about that incident and the others you and By the Way think you are “discovering.” They either never asked me about it or it never made the final cut. I have no control over what footage they choose to use. The point is I have never tried to hide that incident and have always been willing to talk about it.

 

We never have done any of this for money. Oprah does not pay her guests. That is standard policy. To do so would be a violation of journalistic integrity. Yes, the studio audience gets stuff sometimes but not guests. We got coffee mugs and t-shirts. Same with 20/20. News programs do not pay those who appear in their stories. We did those shows to get the word out and to this day I still get emails from all over the world from parents who thought they were alone in their struggles until they saw us. That is why I set up the private support group and the Jani Foundation page, to connect these families together. We were paid for our home video footage by Discovery Health for “Born Schizophrenic.” Both Jani and Bodhi have Coogan accounts. Look up what that is.

 

By the Way keeps talking about how I have disclosed “Jani’s most disturbing moments” or something to that effect (ignoring all the wonderful things I have also blogged about Jani, but I digress). If I didn’t do that, then how would the thousands of other families who have contacted us know they weren’t alone? How would we be able to make any progress in creating in-home and in-community services for these children so they don’t get shipped off to residentials (the only option the Department of Mental Health offers). If we had not split into two apartments, DCFS would have taken Bodhi because he was not (at that time) safe with Jani. The only residential options we were given were out of state, where we would rarely ever get to see her. I was not going to sacrifice one child for another. So we came up with the two separate one-bedroom apartments. The cost of those was more than I make as a lecturer. So yes, I asked for donations. I am grateful that they came. Those people allowed us to keep our family together until Jani could stabilize. I don’t apologize for that.

 

 I am a Licensed Professional in good standing working at a job that I have had for over 2 years now.

 

The reason you blocked me and have blocked others from your sites is not because I kept “going and going” but because you could not manipulate me and be evasive with your answers.

 

From Michael: Manipulate? You seem to see me as this Machiavellian character who plots and plans everything. I am just trying to get my family through each day, Jen. What purpose would I have to manipulate when everything you attack me for is still up on my blogs? I don’t control the world. If you go back over my blogs, you will see I always allow critical comments. I only block people if they, like you, keep saying the same thing over and over again.

 

 You have in fact censored me as well as many others who have confronted you with your abusive and violent behavior.

 

Note from Michael: If you had said your piece once, Jen, I wouldn’t have blocked you. I am not and never have attempted to hide anything. The difference is how we define “abuse.” I don’t define a single action as abuse. That’s a mistake. “Abuse,” to me, is systematic and ongoing. Yes, I have made mistakes and done things I regret. But I have also grown older and wiser. I have also gotten myself on meds and see a therapist. The only thing I ever got really angry at you about was you accusation that I molested Jani. Jani never made that accusation. On top of it, your claim that DCFS didn’t take it seriously because I “told them she was schizophrenic” is both wrong and ridiculous. It is wrong because Jani didn’t have a diagnosis of schizophrenia then (March 2008). We didn’t know what she had. Nobody did. It is ridiculous because if you had ever had a run-in with Child Protective Services you would know they take any claim very seriously. They wouldn’t have cared what I said. I cooperated with their investigation and had to allow Jani to undergo a forensic examination, which neither Susan nor I could be present for. I was cleared. Later I learned that even Susan asked Jani if I had done anything. This hurt me but I understoood. Jani said the same thing to Susan she said to DCFS, which was the same thing I said. I learned afterward that this often happens to parents of mentally ill children. I have yet to meet a parent of a mentally ill child who hasn’t been investigated by CPS in their area and I’ve met many other fathers who have been suspected of and investigated for sexual abuse.

 

So again if you are not censoring me or anyone else then unblock me and everyone you have blocked from your pages and let us question you. But in the meantime (as I know you are afraid to unblock and will keep us censored) I will start by asking you ten questions here:

 

From Michael: I am not going to unblock you from the Jani Foundation page for the reasons I said above. You say the same thing over and over again, even when we answer your questions. I am answering your questions here and that is it. What you do with my answers is up to you. I don’t expect to change your mind but after this I will not acknowledge you again.

 

1. When you shook Jani with “impotent anger” at 2 months old and then did not take her to the hospital following the incident, how long did you live in fear of her dying and you being prosecuted for murdering her? A month? Two?

 

First, what does “impotent anger” mean, Jen? Think about those two words. They are the opposite of each other. “Impotent” is feeling without power. It was a bad choice of words on my part. Jani did not sleep after the first week of her life. We could never get her to sleep for more than 20 or 30 minutes at a time, 24 hours a day. Friends of ours would complain about having to get up every two hours. Hell, we would have loved that! Jani’s pediatrician had no answers for us. Jani was thriving and hitting all her developmental markers. So we survived by taking Jani in shifts: Five hours on, five hours off. I would take Jani for five hours while Susan slept and then we would reverse. This worked until Susan got offered a full time shift at her job. I was an unemployed screenwriter at the time (as you know) so we needed the money. Susan went back to work. Her shift was an overnight, 1am to 9am. Suddenly, i had no one to relieve me. If Jani wasn’t held ALL the time, she would scream. In retrospect, yes, I should have let her cry. The pediatrician said she would cry for 15 or 20 minutes and fall asleep. Except she didn’t. 2 hours later she was still going. I couldn’t listen to her crying because I assumed she was suffering and needed me. So I kept going to her, over and over and over and over again. If you want to know what that is like, go to bed and have somebody wake up every 20 minutes. Continue this for weeks on end. Severe sleep deprivation has a similar effect to psychosis: it deprives you of the ability to process logically. When Jani was screaming in her crib that night, I should have just let her cry it out. But I didn’t. I went to her again and in the process, for a second, I snapped. I picked her up and screamed “Why won’t you sleep?” She started crying harder, which immediately snapped me back to what I had done. I felt awful. I sat in the hall, holding her as she cried, wishing to God I could rewind seconds back in time. Eventually, she calmed down and fell asleep. I held her until Susan came home several hours later. She knew because I had called her and told her. She was furious and terrified. As soon she got home, Jani was wide awake, ready to go out. She looked her over. There was no change in Jani at all in terms of her level of activity or wakefulness. We went to pediatrician the next day. Jani has seen doctors all her life (only pediatricians until age 5) and none of them ever saw any signs of trauma. And did I tell them? Yes, I did. So, to answer your question, yes, I was terrified. I was terrified that I had damaged her. If I had, I would not have been able to live with myself. Period. UCLA knew about it, too, because I told them. I told everyone, Jen. I told DCFS when they came. But one mistake doesn’t make me a child abuser or a criminal, at least in the eyes of the law, Jen. Had I done it multiple times or if there were signs that Jani was being abused, it would have been reported as all doctors are mandated reporters. DCFS does not take your children away because of a single mistake you made NINE years ago. In fact, just so you know, they only look at the last 12 months. If they operated the way you and By the Way seem to think they should, pretty much everybody would lose their children. We all screw up sometimes, Jen.

 

2. When Jani was never sleeping and you were becoming violent with her for not sleeping as an infant you were working on a screenplay called 20/20 at the time… why were you not using that time to sleep?

 

Your dates are off. I don’t know where you got 2003 from. Susan and I wrote 20/20 (a screenplay for those of you who don’t know which does feature a character named “January” (because we liked the name-that is why we named our daughter that) but has nothing to do with mental illness or the TV show) in 2000, two years before Jani was born. I wasn’t writing anything when Jani was an infant.

 

3. What if any mental health help did you get for yourself immediately after shaking Jani with “impotent anger”?

 

I saw a psychiatrist and a therapist. I was prescribed Lexapro.

 

4. Susan when you first decided to put Jani in UCLA isn’t it true that it was just a few months after you had given birth to Bodhi and you were having post pardum depression, what mental health help did you get for yourself before ultimately deciding Jani was the problem and putting her in UCLA?

 

We didn’t “decide” to put Jani in UCLA. Apparently, you are not aware that the decision to admit has to be made by the attending psychiatrist. Jani got into UCLA because the school district called the police because Jani was trying to injure herself. The police got her into UCLA.

 

Jani’s violence started several months before Bodhi was born but became shocking in its intensity after he was born. Susan had no time to be depressed. We were too busy trying to protect Bodhi because every time he cried she would scream at him and try to go after him.

 

5. Susan, I understand that you took Jani to auditions for 3 years before she was 5 years old until she decided she did not want to do them anymore. Did her refusal to do the auditions influence your decision that she was mentally ill?

 

Again, your dates are off. Jani did a few auditions as an infant. By two, she said she didn’t want to do them anymore so Susan stopped taking her. And to answer your question from another post, no, she was never alone with a casting director. And, no, we didn’t think anything was wrong with Jani until she became violent at five. When she no longer wanted to do auditions, I was actually happy. I wanted her (and still want her) to be a scientist, not an actor. Since Jani loved to learned, we both assumed she just didn’t have an interest in acting. At this moment in time she wants to become a Livestock Veterinarian and our goal is to help her get there. End of story.

 

6. When Jani was being evaluated at UCLA for mental illness, you write in your blog that when Drs asked you if Jani had any history of abuse you said no. Were you intentionally being deceptive with them or did you honestly believe that your violent actions were not abusive?

 

As I said above, I told them about the shaking incident. “History of abuse” is just that, “a history.” That means more than one event. They, nor I, did not consider one event to constitute a “history of abuse.”

 

7. Do the drs who did Jani’s MRI and found the ischemia in her brain know that you shook her as an infant, also hit her as hard as you could at other times or of any other violent act you have done to Jani that you have chosen not to blog about?

 

Yes, they do, because I told them. They have also read my blogs. So has DCFS. DCFS, I know, has read every single one of them. You seem to assume nobody but my “supporters” read my blog. About half a million people have read my blogs, Jen.

 

8. Did Jani’s psychiatrists at UCLA know that you abused her prior to her symptoms and ultimate diagnosis? Does her current psychiatrist know that you abused her?

 

Again, they don’t consider one incident that happened nine years ago “abuse.” But if you are asking if they know about what I did when she was an infant, yes. They know everything. Susan and I hide nothing. Both the UCLA doctors and Jani’s outpatient psychiatrist (who has always been her psychiatrist) have even seen Susan and I argue and flght verbally in front of them.

 

9. This past summer you blogged about how you dosed Jani with adult strength benedryl in order to knock her out. Were you aware at that time that overdoses of benedryl caused halucinations? Susan exactly how much benedryl were you dosing Bodhi with this past fall when you were claiming on FB that he too was schizophrenic and having halucinations?

 

I was doing what was prescribed by her doctor. 25mg of Benadryl is used to counteract the risk of extra-pyramidal symptoms which can lead to tardive dyskensia, always a risk with anti-psychotics. These drugs scare the shit out of me. Do you really think I would leave her on them if I hadn’t seen such a dramatic improvement? To look at her now, to meet her (which you never have), you would never know she had schizophrenia. That is because the meds work.

 

Yes, Benadryl can cause hallucinations… if you drink about six bottles of the stuff. But Jani’s hallucinations predate any use of Benadryl by two years.

 

10. Is it true that you are now editing your blogs as you have done in the past of the abusive acts you previously described in order to deceive the public? Why also have you not made mention of ANY of your abusive violent actions on ANY of the tv spots? Do you not find that deceptive to the public at large?

 

Jen, I don’t even read my old blogs, much less edit them. The only thing I ever changed was the “About me” on the old blog. I changed it because the new version was better. Also, when I wrote the first version I was dealing with the opposite of you, which were people who thought that Jani wasn’t mentally ill but just a brat and we just needed to be stricter with her. You still see comments like that on the YouTube page.

 

Everything that I have done is still in my blogs at www.janisjourney.org. The rest of your questions I answered above. The media people we have worked with have done their research. They have read my blogs. They do ask me. I answer. Why they have never used those answers is something you have to take up with them.

 

Okay, that does it for me. Nice chatting with you, Jen. I wish you and your family well.

34 comments on “Miranda Part 2

  1. I think that “Jen” needs to seek some kind of help for herself. Her preoccupation with Jani seems very odd, but I am coming in on the tail end of it
    I am glad you shared your story, I remembered seeing Jani on Oprah and literally breaking down in tears because I had felt so alone up until that point. My son screamed for hours and hours as an infant, if we were not holding him he was screaming… sometimes until he vomited. He NEVER slept, I remember feeling like I was going completely insane from sleep deprivation. I can see how you can lose your grip on sanity for a moment. I can see how a great parent could end up in your shoes at that moment. I don’t think you can even fathom the stress unless you have been there.

  2. OCPD egosyntonic
    She will never change her mind, ever. Because she revels in this behaviour she is obviously egosytonic, unlike people with OCD who recognize that their behaviour is troubling. The description on this website is bang on in several regards: http://www.brainphysics.com/oc-personality.php

    is preoccupied with details, rules, lists, order, organization, or schedules to the extent that the major point of the activity is lost
    shows perfectionism that interferes with task completion (e.g., is unable to complete a project because his or her own overly strict standards are not met)
    is excessively devoted to work and productivity to the exclusion of leisure activities and friendships (not accounted for by obvious economic necessity)
    is over conscientious, scrupulous, and inflexible about matters of morality, ethics, or values (not accounted for by cultural or religious identification)
    is unable to discard worn-out or worthless objects even when they have no sentimental value
    is reluctant to delegate tasks or to work with others unless they submit to exactly his or her way of doing things
    adopts a miserly spending style toward both self and others; money is viewed as something to be hoarded for future catastrophes
    shows rigidity and stubbornness

    Don’t waste any more of your time, Michael.

  3. someone who understands
    Michael, if her name is really “Jen”, I suggest you change the name used and used a pseudonym.

    I’m not sure why she is so focused on you or Jani, but don’t stir the pot.

  4. At this point, I would just disengage. There is obviously something wrong with her- and you don’t need to answer to her.

    Note from Michael: That is very true- I don’t need to answer her. I don’t owe her anything, explanations, whatever. This was my final attempt at logic.

  5. It’s not about you
    Michael, I’m sure you know none of this woman’s rantings are about you. She is obviously a very troubled person, and all this violence she expresses, is actually “her stuff”, not yours, or Susan’s, or anyone else’s. This is about her own pride, insecurities, doubts, fears.

    Good thing you are a strong family unit who will not be shaken by such pitiful human being.

  6. Jen is a common name, whether it is her actual name or not.

    She has made herself easy to find, by the way, so I don’t think putting her first name on here is going to make a bit of difference.

  7. holding the baby
    You say that Jani would scream unless you held her all the time. But in a previous blog you said that Jani never liked being held, even as a baby. Can you explain this apparent contradiction please?

  8. You’ve explained yourself to her but now I recommend ignoring her. As you’ve said DCFS and Jani’s doctors know everything so there’s no way she can influence them. If she continues with her behaviour then she could very well end up in legal trouble (especially if she continues harassing DCFS who have better things to do). Your honesty is your strength because nothing she can say will hurt you. I understand though that her attacks can be hurtful especially her claim about molestation which on her part is disgusting.

  9. Mrs
    Please tell me the name of your facebook page. i would love to follow you. God bless you and your family as you struggle thru each day.

  10. Michael-
    Just for the record, you didn’t need to prove yourself or integrity to some of your readers. Why this woman is so concerned with Jani and scrutinizing your every move, I don’t know. But most of us don’t question your motives like she does. Exploiting? Really? I’m sure you’d pay millions to make Jani well and disappear from public eye.
    Just know you have support from so many. We understand. And want to see your family thrive. Take care-

  11. Michael-
    Just for the record, you didn’t need to prove yourself or integrity to some of your readers. Why this woman is so concerned with Jani and scrutinizing your every move, I don’t know. But most of us don’t question your motives like she does. Exploiting? Really? I’m sure you’d pay millions to make Jani well and disappear from public eye.
    Just know you have support from so many. We understand. And want to see your family thrive. Take care-

  12. The world is so full of idiots. I too have faced ridiculous and extremely hurtful personal attacks on the internet. I sympathize with you, Michael. “Warriormom” needs to get a life.

  13. “Jen” is a sad human being & I agree with the 1st post, she needs help herself. Anyone going to extreme lengths of harassment, abuse, and judgment just to hurt a family they don’t even know personally needs help. Your family has been & is currently seeking help and that is all you can do for your family.

    Michael & Susan, I think by now you should stop all contact & acknowlegment of this “Jen”. If ANYTHING, contact authorities because someone like this can only get worse. The nerve of people who think they can control others through their computer screen…yuck.

  14. Don’t waste your time on her. There are people out there who only know black and white and if they have decided you are black, you will never be able to argue them into beleiving that you are actually yellow. They won’t get it. And they don’t want to get it. Because their hatred won’t let them. And because they are right. You say the gras is green? No, it ain’t! The sky is blue? No sir! You are actually a great, loving and caring parent? Heck, never!

    I agree with what Kala J says. Don’t acknowledge her. Don’t offer her a platform for her junk. Contact authorities. Isn’t that slander? Defamation of character? Stalking? Something you could get her stopped for?

  15. This is for the person this blog entry is directed at, in the event she reads these comments. Jen, move on and leave this family alone. They have things to cope with on a daily basis, and if you actually care about these children then go away. The kids need their parents, and how you got it into your head that they are in danger and you are going to save them is beyond me. You need to take care of yourself and leave this family in peace.

    Michael, I go along with everyone else and say, you’ve got to ignore this woman. She has fixated on you and each time she get a reaction from you it only emboldens her. I understand you and Susan are incensed by her interference in your lives, but she is a stalker, and there is no rhyme or reason when it comes to this psychiatric behaviour. You will never get her to back off by responding. Perhaps you should consult an attorney and investigate the idea of an order of protection, should she decide writing and calling aren’t enough, and shows up at your door one day.

  16. Okay, I agree and disagree with you on many different things… but I think we can agree on the fact that this woman has issues. The fact that she seems to know so much about a kid that she doesn’t know scares the crap out of me. (And I bet it scares the crap out of you as well!)

    Parenting doesn’t come with a manual. We’re all going to disagree on things. But as long as – at a base level – a person is doing their best to be a good parent, I think they should be left alone.

    Although I find myself questioning some of your choices, I have never once thought that you had anything but the best of intentions for your kids. End of story. And, I can never really know what decision I would make because I’m not the parent of Jani – which seems to be a realization that this Jen is lacking.

    I know there’s not much you can do about this weird woman. My only suggestion would be that you ignore her – which seems what you’re trying to do. I know you probably have the want to know what she’s up to in order to protect your family, but if you keep going back and forth with her, she will just escalate. Nothing you can ever say will ever placate her and you could just be making the situation worse.

    Good luck.

  17. I hope that’s the last time you answer that woman. She’s harrassing you and she seems to enjoy the negative attention.

    Just ignore her.

  18. January
    I had the honor of meeting this sweet little girl in Color Me Mine! We talked a little about the dog bowls I was making for my grandchildren. You may or may not remember me, but I would love to help you anyway I can. Can’t help financially, but I would love to help out as an adopted grandma. If this sounds like a good idea to you, please e-mail me back. May God bless you and your family, Gail

    Note from Michael: Hi Gail. I will definitely forward your email to Susan or your can email her at susandschofield@yahoo.com. I wasn’t there that day so obviously I don’t know you 🙂

  19. friendly advice
    Michael,
    please listen 2 me. I have seen situations like this, where someone in the public eye (you) focuses on trolls WAY too much (Warrior mom). Just leave her alone, no 1 will believe her because she is an idiot. She is a troll. The more you feed a troll (the more attention you give them) , the longer they stay around.(the longer they mess with you). You have to think of it like this, if she talks 2 u online, and you don’t talk back to her, she will feel like she is talking to no one. Then she will stop trolling. Just leave her alone, before this gets really bad, and trust me, I have seen this get REALLY bad. Thanks!

    -Teenager

  20. Those who matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t matter.” -Dr. Seuss

    How is the family going Michael? How is the book coming along? Since I no longer have facebook I’m always wondering how you’re all holding up with you having so little time for blogs.

    Note from Michael: Hi Sara. You can always email me at michaeljohnschofield@me.com. Yes, I am aware I haven’t blogged for awhile. It’s a combination of factors, none related to the book. That is done and in production. Between teaching and issues with the kids I just haven’t hide time to write a new blog. Hopefully I will be able to soon. I need this outlet to function well.

  21. Haha
    Jen must be a source of constant amusement for you two. ;D

    Note from Michael: Actually, we haven’t heard from her in awhile. Don’t know what happened.

  22. You said here that you’re going to take everyone’s advice and ignore Jen. Last week, you had her on Susan’s radio show! Not only did you feed the troll, you invited her in and offered her anything she wanted. Before you try and say that you weren’t the one who talked to Jen, just remember that you and Susan are supposed to be a team…. You seem to bring on many of your problems by yourself.

    Note from Michael: I see your point but she wasn’t going to go away. She kept saying we were censoring her even though she’d had a standing offer to come on Bipolar Nation for some time. She finally accepted and since then we haven’t really heard from her. It turned out to be the best course of action. She got to ask her questions and Susan answered. Jen may not have liked Susan’s answers but she was polite and considerate (which she hadn’t been on the web). I see no further issues. She can say what she wants and believe what she wants but she can’t say we didn’t give her an opportunity to be heard.

  23. ..
    Yeah, I am fully on board with Jen. If you don’t want people to speculate about what is truly wrong with your daughter, then stop divulging so much information on to the internet, and stop exploiting your daughter on television. I am a second year psych student, and even I know that the thalamus is the part of the brain that sends and communicates the out going messages. While this is a common theory of the cause of schizophrenia, it is NOT one if it was not genetically passed down. (which would explain why you were turned down for the UCLA program.. it is clear to see that they too do not believe that you daughter is schizophrenic) Since neither you nor your wife has made it clear that you have any family history of schizophrenia, it would make more sense that the trauma your daughter suffered as an infant is what is causing her hallucinations. It is quite possible that she does not have schizophrenia, she has a cognitive malfunction. Do you understand the dangers of Lithium on small children? It is illegal to prescribe it here. The medical world in the United States is much different than that up North… too easily are people misdiagnosed, and I think you should be open to listen to other explanations, that other Doctor’s have suggested. I am not trying to argue with you, but a family member of mine is going through a major mental/cognitive change due to a Personality Disorder and it is his parents that are stopping him from getting the help he deserves, because they are only willing to listen to the initial diagnosis of Major Depression/Bi Polar disorder, and not the majority diagnosis.. which could fix him.

    Note from Michael: Allison, you are mistaken on a few things. First, I am not sure what you mean by “Jani was rejected for the UCLA program.” Jani has never been rejected for anything at UCLA, other than their day program (which they call the “ABC Program” (initially because they felt she was too violent). Jani was rejected for the NIMH study on schizophrenia because the lesion in her thalamus was considered biological brain injury (and their study requires children with no biological brain damage for control purposes). Second, damage to the thalamus is NOT a common theory of the cause of schizophrenia. I wish it was but I don’t think there even been any studies regarding schizophrenia and the thalamus, so I am not sure where you are getting that from. Third, Susan and I do indeed have family histories of schizophrenia. I haven’t talked much about it because I don’t know that much but the increasingly odd behavior and flat affect of my mother could be considered schizophrenic (I am not in touch with her so I don’t know). My great uncle was diagnosed schizophrenia and Susan’s second cousin. Putting aside schizophrenia, there is mental illness riddled through out our respective families, from severe depression to bipolar.

    Finally, I don’t really care if people speculate as to what is “truly wrong” with Jani. I don’t know what gave that impression. Jen is just different because I have answered her questions over and over again ad nauseum.

    A small piece of advice if you are intending to be a psychologist: arrogance will not help your patients. Do not come in with pre-conceived ideas. Listen. A little knowledge, my dear second year psych student, is a dangerous thing.

  24. in response to allison’s allegations
    “n support of this hypothesis, schizophrenia-like syndromes emerge when illnesses, such as stroke, selectively damage the thalamus while sparing the rest of the brain. Evidence from many sources has implicated thalamic dysfunction in schizophrenia. In postmortem studies, several subregions of the thalamus, including the mediodorsal nucleus and the pulvinar, have been shown to have fewer neurons in schizophrenia.”
    http://www.springerlink.com/content/gw1r573g221mw301/
    http://www.rightdiagnosis.com/t/thalamic_syndrome_dejerine_roussy/intro.htm
    http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21312411

  25. It is noble of you to try to respond to this person’s “questions”… but just remember, you don’t OWE her any explanations or answers. I’ve been reading blogs almost as long as blogs have been invented… and ANY time there is a blogger that has a lot of readers, you will get angry comments from people who have some strong opinion about something and think that you’ve personally offended them. Sometimes they’re called flamers. They thrive on arguing and creating controversy. If the blogger is a parent, the commenter will almost always accuse the blogger of being abusive. If you blog about your marriage, they’ll accuse you of being a cheater. There is always something. One lady I know blogs about raising her daughter who has a chronic illness, and she got some comments about how she was using her daughter’s illness to get attention. So… really… just ignore. Skip over the negative comments. You are a great parent, and you are doing us a service by sharing your experiences with us. You even take the time to answer people’s questions . Most readers appreciate that a lot. If there are one or two people in the crowd who aren’t your fans, then they should just stop reading!
    OK that is all. Carry on.

    Note from Michael: Thanks. I usually do ignore but sometimes responding makes for a good blog. I only respond to critics when I feel like it.

  26. I was moved by your book
    Michael,

    I was moved by your book January First. I am the Executive Director of the San Antonio Clubhouse. We are a nonprofit working with adults who have severe and persistent mental illness. our website is http://www.saclubhouse.org)

    A copy of my review, which will run within the next month or so, is below. I wish you and your daughter and your family the best.

    January First: A Child’s Descent Into Madness and Her Father’s Struggle to Save Her
    Michael Schofield
    Crown Publishers
    288 pages
    $25

    January “Janni” Schofield cannot control her anger. She continually lashes out at her father with fists, objects or teeth, once biting him on the face until he bled. Several times a day, Janni screams at the top of her lungs, or completely shuts down, for no discernible reason. She repeatedly hits the family dog, her infant baby brother, or anyone within reach. In rare moments of sanity, she begs her father to hospitalize her. Janni is four years old.
    This is the story of a father’s love for a daughter who cannot reciprocate. Janni has a 146 IQ. An extremely gifted child, she is multiplying and dividing numbers in her head at three years old. But she also has a bevy of strange imaginary friends, though she doesn’t believe they are imaginary. Janni doesn’t sleep, and is given massive doses of Thorazine and other psychotropic drugs, with little or no effect.
    This is also the story of a broken mental health system, with hospitals that are mismanaged and understaffed, school systems not equipped to deal with mental illness, and insurance companies looking for any excuse to discontinue expensive mental health benefits.
    Throughout an agonizing but compelling read, Janni is on a roller coaster of hospitalizations and other interventions. And nobody seems to know what’s wrong. She’s misdiagnosed and undiagnosed, leaving experts scratching their heads.
    Things continue to escalate, getting so bad that Schofield and his wife decide to move into separate apartments within the same complex, just so they can keep Janni separated from her brother.
    Schofield connects with his daughter in a way no one else can, perhaps because of his own struggle with depression and anxiety. He displays superhuman patience and tolerance in dealing with Janni’s baffling outbursts, wanting only to protect her from what he sees as the onslaught of an outside world that does not understand her. He and his wife are not perfect parents (are any of us?), not always presenting a united front, arguing in front of Janni, seemingly letting her run roughshod over them at times. At other times they exhibit a strength and resilience beyond my comprehension.
    Ultimately, Janni is diagnosed with child-onset schizophrenia, one of the worst cases doctors have ever seen. It’s a devastating blow to Schofield. He now has given up hope of Janni recovering from her bizarre behavior: “Pieces of my daughter’s mind are eroding like chunks ripped away from the sandy bank of a rain-swollen river.” Shofield’s despair ultimately drives him to a suicide attempt.
    Though Janni’s story is horrifying, there is a semi-happy ending. A drug combination is found that, while not completely controlling Janni’s violent and self-destructive behavior, at least cuts down on the frequency of her outbursts.
    Schofield writes furiously, driven by desperation, confusion, anger and love. But through it all he never gives up on Janni, and it is this love and commitment that makes this a story worth reading, that gives Janni’s future a glimmer of hope.

    Note from Michael: Thank you. I will check out your organization. It’s organizations like yours that tend to fly under the radar and I will do what I can to promote you guys.

  27. Hollywood should take notice
    The entire genre of horror films has failed to create a character as malignant and grotesque as “Jen B/Warriormom.” She is truly the stuff of nightmares.

    Note from Michael: Actually, sadly, she is very, very mentally ill. It has taken me a while to realize just HOW severe she is. I hope she gets the help she needs.

  28. I find it interesting that there are people who are convinced that you are doing the wrong thing by Jani. Many parents struggle searching for answers as to why our children may not be acting in a “normal” way or why our child has developed a particular health issue. We are spinning ourselves in circles trying to help and protect our children, and we are doing the best we can. And yet there is always someone who judges our actions. Rather than pointing fingers and giving lip service to family values, our society needs to support parents and families, lend a helping hand and listen to thier stories and not judge. No one has walked in your shoes except you and from what I read, you are doing the best you can in a world few people have any experience. It’s like when someone is diagnosed with cancer and everyone wants to know what that person “did” so that they don’t get it, or they tell you all the things you “should” be doing. What the person with cancer probably really needs is someone to listen, validate their feelings and care. That’s what I sense you needed when you started your blog, Michael. There are many of us who are listening, not judging and supporting you and your family.

    Note from Michael: Well, I agree but I actually started my blog as an attempt to try and make sense in my own mind what was happening to Jani, to us, to me. Ultimately, I write for me.

  29. I am a retired teacher of special education after 33 years.
    Throughout my career I have seen quite a range of early childhood behavior.
    Jani may have benefited from early intervention but she did not go. Move forward.
    I do remember a girl, so pretty, who would go into a corner, stamp her feet and manufacture
    mucus from her nose and projectile blow it at both classmates
    I remember another child who spent the majority of two years in the program under the work table.
    We should remember not to judge until we have walked a mile in another man’s shoes.

  30. Wow! I know this is an older post (I’m fairly new to your blog!) But I just can’t believe how far this person will go. Warrior Mom – have you SEEN the video footage of Jani at birth? It is 100% CLEAR she was seeing things & focused on things from day 1! You make it sound as if Michael & Susan planned or somehow caused this! Nobody would want this diagnosis for their child! Get a life! I have a child with autism & ocd. Every day is a struggle. The WORST thing an outsider can do is judge/blame the parents. Living with these illnesses are hard enough.

    Michael & Susan : you guys are amazing! I hope this horrible person is put in her place. You don’t owe this psychotic internet stalker any explanation at all! May God bless you all in the coming months & years.

  31. January
    Michael,this woman is an idiot -don’t waste your time with an imbecile who claims she is professional, and yet can’t even spell the word “paid” correctly. Your daughter is fortunate to have two parents who will never give up on her! Raising awareness is the only way to get the help that kids like Jani needs. I’m in the middle of reading your book-and I feel your struggle. My brother was diagnosed with ADHD and went unmedicated due to old school stigma on my parent’s part. He hallucinated on several occasions and tried to hit me with a 2×4 when he was 3-ran at me with a steak knife when he was 4-talked about killing himself at age 6-had been to 4 different schools by age 7-and tried to kill me with a heavy wood dining chair when he was 12 and got suspended from his private school 10 times in one year…he began using meth at 16 and was shot 14 times by the police in a stolen car 5 blocks from my parents house. I believe my brother had schizophrenia or something similar- he didn’t get treatment …I miss him every day. You and your wife are doing everything you can for Jani-i admire you both so much,not only for what you do for your kids,but also for your candid honesty. No one is perfect, but you and Susan are pretty damn close…..hugs to you both……Mia C SF CA

    Note from Michael: I am so sorry for the loss of your brother.

  32. Michael and Susan,
    Don’t worry about Jen.

    If you want some insight, someone who has been abused, emotionally, physically, sexually… whatever you want, will always think that throwing verbal garbage is the best way to do.
    In some cases, it can go very far.
    Now, I try to get help but well, when I lash out on someone else, it’s like I accomplished the best thing. Then, I feel such a remorse that I would not had anyone or anything to hope, I would probably made anything I could to end my life.
    I know that when I lash out, even my GP knows that when I lash out with verbal garbage, it can escalate until serious damage is done.
    The only thing you can do to people like Jen is acknowledging HER when you reply HER that she needs help. Don’t suggest her any kind of help unless she specifically asks you which kind of help, because it puts only oil on the fire. Stay matter of fact, non judgmental, don’t tell her go and see X, maybe you need Y… it makes the matter only worse because it sounds to the person like you judge her or baby her. Feeling judgment or being baby can only launch escalation.
    Then, like you did, stop any contact with the person. Literally. If she does it again, take legal actions and acknowledge to the authorities that you think she needs a serious help because she has serious issues.
    In my case, it never ended to needing a legal action, but I am monitored by GP (okay, she is a GP, but she does her job better than some shrinks. Complicated story, compounded that mental health in my country is like Middle Ages, and some psych wards are places where people are let die) and I have a therapist. Plus a prescribing pdoc at hospital (I suffer from ADHD + other issues + hearing loss. Ritalin has to be prescribed by a specialist at hospital where I live).
    What I said worthes what it worthes, but it may help you to manage some crazy folks without putting you and Susan, Jani and Bodhi into more troubles than you already have.

    How are Jani and Bodhi doing ? How is Jani’s health ? How is she doing at school ?
    0.02$ question, how a therapist can teach Jani to make the difference between reality and her world ? Because I’ve read somewhere that CBT therapies for adults with schizophrenia used to children don’t work.
    Answer if you feel comfortable, but did Jani ask you if she will be able to have children ? Did she ask something about relationships with guys ? Again, answer only if you feel comfortable.
    Does she have friends ?
    Is she able to tell you when she does not feel right and ask help ?
    Most important question, is Jani happy ?

    Take care

  33. Michael,

    I recently re-discovered Jani’s (and your family’s) story and was keen to seek an update on her. In doing so, I came across this post.

    Note: I have also battled mental illness for the past five years (I am in my early twenties now), and was particularly moved by Jani’s story. My family and I have had the most trialling time comprehending my own battle with mental illness, and struggling with complex questions as to the aetiology of the illness and why treatment wasn’t working (or rather, working in the exact way that I hoped would return to me back to ‘normal’).

    Back to my point; in light of my personal history – I found myself empathising with your beautiful daughter. In particular, the guilt and self-blame that she associated/associates (?) with her disease. She, and your family, has unfortunately been dealt a hand that anyone would struggle with. I understand that unempathetic, judgemental and bigoted people exist in this world. It is unfortunate that such a person – ‘warriormom’ (a true misnomer) – has taken an interest (read: unhealthy obsession) in your lives and deems herself qualified enough to judge. Truly, how can we judge anyone else without knowing their past/true existence? Some people have very kindly attributed warriormom’s zealous interference in your lives as a manifestation of illness. I would argue that she is simply a bored massage therapist, whose slim list of clientele (if any) renders her enough time to meddle in the lives of virtual strangers.

    Irrespective of people like ‘warrior mom’ – know that it is because of people like you and your wife that children like Jani have a chance at enjoying, or even assimilating into, everyday life. I am fortunate enough to also have parents that fight for me. Every single day. All I can urge you to do is keep doing the same for your daughter – despite the judgment from others (although, I’m sure that irrespective of my comment – you would have done that!). Sometimes this will be unpopular, and it will be hard – socially, financially, physically, mentally (all of which you have no doubt experienced), but Jani will be better off. Of this I am sure.

    I also wanted to say; if Jani wants to be a vet – then she can be a vet. If she wants to be a ballerina, she can. I thought my lifelong dream of becoming a doctor was over when I was diagnosed. I didn’t think that I could manage everyday life with my symptoms, let alone academic studies. I am happy to say, I am currently in medical school (I got accepted into every single medical school that I applied to). Although my particular mental illness is less severe than that of Jani’s (from what I’ve seen, although that is a very biased opinion based on heavily edited tv footage) – I have complete faith that she will be able to achieve incredible things with the right psychiatric and social support.

    Michael and Susan: You are wonderful. Keep living your lives in a way that you believe is right and honest by Jani and Bodhi.

    Best of luck to your beautiful family xx

  34. Jen/Warrior Mom needs psychiatric hospitalization and meds!
    Jen/Warrior Mom seems to be a somatic narcissist. Her intent is to violate and control. Narcissists are predators to the mentally ill, because narcissists see the mentally ill as being more vulnerable than others. Protect your family from her and others like her. Don’t let her violate and control your family. Please don’t engage her with responses to her and please don’t post anymore info about your children and personal lives, because it’s ammunition for her. I do hope that you will file a police report about her stalking and harassment. Reporting her behavior to her licensing board would be a good idea, because she is likely to be violating and harassing other people as well. As a narcissist she projects. I believe that she is in conflict, because she is not accepting her own mental illness and her violent behavior, so she projects that onto somebody she sees as vulnerable. She is psychotic and predatorial and you need to protect your family from her.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *